OCT 27TH
Today another good day, as I see it. It will begin a series of a long-lasting fun life for me. As of yesterday when I started reading the Islamic books I feel like a changed man totally. No question about it. I feel happier and more grateful to God for what he has given me. I have found out that I have been blinded for so long for not seeing what God has given me for which not many people possess. A good family, relatively smart and doing well socially with a girl-friend. I felt as if I was losing my smartness and my girl-friend there for a second but I have bounced back and opened my eyes to reality. I am indeed grateful to be seeing the light and be guided to the right path. I see that now much more clearly and I believe I’ll be seeing it a lot more now and in the coming future as I’ll devote all my leisure time reading more about islam and about ways purify the greedy and ill-hearted soul I have now. With prayers to Allah in this month of RAMADAN I shall be a changed man forever, inshallah.
That was the best part of my day today with some minor events happening ofcourse. Waking up for Suhur and going out to RABBA at 3:30 in the morning which was quite strange. Coming back and cooking some rice which tasted great and praying together with Malik and Shameel. It felt great just like the old days. But there Is no where than having RAMADAN back home with the whole familiy. But hey u got to give up certain conveniences living abroad I must say. Well this is very little atleast ALLAh has brought us to a place where the weather is cold and it is very easy to fast even with the various temptations of eating all around me, I still can go on happily without being irritated at people eating around me. It is perfectly normal.
I believe also with this RAMADAN it will help me stop cursing and I think I definitely want to erase it part of my regular day language and being a more polite person that I used to be, before I became corrupted upon arriving here. May Allah see me through that.
Out mid-term results were out today, I wasn;t particularly please to see them but atleast there is space for improvement. I hope Allah is punishing me for the way I’ve been thinking and behaving recently. Just giving enough time realize what I have done and return to the good path before returning to my glorious days once more. Inshallah.
I talked to my girlfriend today we had another good chat, it was cool because both sides were equally enthusiastic which was fantastic we really haven’t had that in a while, I do believe it is because of my change yesterday night to being a nicer person and being less rude and arrogant as I was hailed the past weeks. I am glad we’re both happier and we’re still together. I feel am living the time of life now with just this sudden reflection out of the blue just coming from Allah. I hope I remain a happy person for the rest of my days here on Earth. After all life is too short and we should really try to give great emphasis on the worship of the All Might and All knowing who had brought us here and gave us bountous resources in order to enjoy life but because of man Grediness, nothing is even enough, I have grown to learn this now when am just about to turn 18. Now I feel proud am going to be 18, atleast I feel I have accomplished something, being spiritually well off and getting rid of the little thoughts that have cluttered my minds these past few months which won’t help me at all in the After life.
OCT 28TH
Another fascinating day for me. Just so cool I should say. It was great, my day started at 5 when I woke up for suhur which wasn’t long. I finished and went to bed at 6 am but I couldn’t sleep I was just there, but the thing is, my body was physically tired so it needed rest atleast.
The day went well, math class was fun actually, of all things. After class I retreated to my shelter where I was reading once more on my Islamic books I should say which has indeed purified my soul with no questions asked about it. I feel like a new man indeed, deep inside, clearified of the minor problems that have bothered me before.
After lunch, went to Marketing class where I got a high mark for my test in which the Teacher mistakingly gave us the answers to the problems I most say, how lucky I must say. Business Law was ok, the same thing going on, the mockery of people continues like always, nothing new I must say.
Came back broke the fast at 5:20 went for dinner came back and got ready for the Mosque which was quite good too. I came back and went to Brandon’s room where we talked about life and about the girl of his interest now.
Afterwards, I ate my food since I wasn’t waking up for suhur. I then called my gf and we talked for about an hour or more. We talked about Sundayt when I was really angry at her. So that was over, I apologize for not being reasonable not fair to her. Now we are back in good terms which am really glad and happy about I should say. We all talked about our problems and everyone was feeling great again. None of us wanted to drop the phone once more which is the case most of the time, even though I lost considerable sleeping time it was still worth it, every second of it.